Here we go again!
Apr. 19th, 2004 01:40 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelkitty101Well, here's my update! Friday was uneventful generally, nice quiet night in with lovely Mr indovan, joda_vibe and me! Much fun had by all on various computor silliness! Cocktail night did not happen as indovan was Atkins-ing again, so we listened to music and chilled out.
Sat - quiet morning, I've been feeling off all weekend tho, tummy cramps and the like, so wasn't really at my best. Went into town to meet a load of joda-boi's role playing friends, but toddled off down to the pagan shop in digbeth first (they are open till 7pm on a Sat - joy). Shop was lovely, smelt soooooo good, and tons of yummy stuff. Nothing really screamed at me tho, still it's nice to scope out the competition!
Whilst walking down to the shop, I had to walk past the Kerry Man - the pub where my dad works. He was in there, which was a surprise in a way. So on the way back I popped in to see him. It made his day, as most of you will know, I don't have the best relationship with my darling daddy, but he is still my dad, and I do love him. It was a real shock to see him tho, he's gone from being a big bear of a man to looking like my grandad. He's 2 yrs younger than my mum, but looks so much older, he's lost a lot of weight, and his face has started to sink in, and his neck has gone very stringy.
I'm kinda worried about him, as he is starting to look ill, and that coupled with the fact that he is a very heavy smoker (60 a day Superkings Black), and he eats all the wrong things, and takes no excercise.......I know what I want to say, but don't want to put it down. It's kinda made me feel very odd, kinda teary and stuff.
Sat was also marred for another reason, that has now been sorted. However, I'm still in a 'wouldn't let it lie' mood. I think it most amusing that someone has the patience, determination and sheer bloody-mindedness to go through my lj for comments about them. Have decided that the ppl involved are not worth even commenting on. They know who they are, and quite frankly, if they have nothing better to do than re-hash the past, then maybe they should take up another hobby! Still it is a supreme validation for my own self-importance (and yours missscarlet21, they are still talking about you too!) :-)
I predicted that this sort of thing would happen when certain ppl found out I had an lj, and true to form, they delivered. I must be more psychic than I thought :-), whilst I could use this to make a point, put things right etc, it would be a waste of time, as only those with open minds, and the ability to comprehend other ppl's feelings would be able to take it in. Trust me, I've tried before, it's like trying to get blood INTO a stone!!!!
I have now been thinking of making this journal friends only, mainly cos I don't want stuff I say twisted and distorted, but then I don't want to look like I am letting it get to me. So I'm staying open! Mind you, I will be making more posts friends only, and using more filters!
I don't like not being able to trust ppl, and part of me does feel violated by this intrusion, but as I say, I should have expected it! Those who know me, and those I love to bits have shown their worth many times over. I am honoured to call all of you friends, and hope that at least some of you feel that I am a good friend back. I am always there when you need me, and don't tend to let others view influence mine!
Sorry that took so long, but I do feel a bit calmer now.
Thank you all for listening!
Sat - quiet morning, I've been feeling off all weekend tho, tummy cramps and the like, so wasn't really at my best. Went into town to meet a load of joda-boi's role playing friends, but toddled off down to the pagan shop in digbeth first (they are open till 7pm on a Sat - joy). Shop was lovely, smelt soooooo good, and tons of yummy stuff. Nothing really screamed at me tho, still it's nice to scope out the competition!
Whilst walking down to the shop, I had to walk past the Kerry Man - the pub where my dad works. He was in there, which was a surprise in a way. So on the way back I popped in to see him. It made his day, as most of you will know, I don't have the best relationship with my darling daddy, but he is still my dad, and I do love him. It was a real shock to see him tho, he's gone from being a big bear of a man to looking like my grandad. He's 2 yrs younger than my mum, but looks so much older, he's lost a lot of weight, and his face has started to sink in, and his neck has gone very stringy.
I'm kinda worried about him, as he is starting to look ill, and that coupled with the fact that he is a very heavy smoker (60 a day Superkings Black), and he eats all the wrong things, and takes no excercise.......I know what I want to say, but don't want to put it down. It's kinda made me feel very odd, kinda teary and stuff.
Sat was also marred for another reason, that has now been sorted. However, I'm still in a 'wouldn't let it lie' mood. I think it most amusing that someone has the patience, determination and sheer bloody-mindedness to go through my lj for comments about them. Have decided that the ppl involved are not worth even commenting on. They know who they are, and quite frankly, if they have nothing better to do than re-hash the past, then maybe they should take up another hobby! Still it is a supreme validation for my own self-importance (and yours missscarlet21, they are still talking about you too!) :-)
I predicted that this sort of thing would happen when certain ppl found out I had an lj, and true to form, they delivered. I must be more psychic than I thought :-), whilst I could use this to make a point, put things right etc, it would be a waste of time, as only those with open minds, and the ability to comprehend other ppl's feelings would be able to take it in. Trust me, I've tried before, it's like trying to get blood INTO a stone!!!!
I have now been thinking of making this journal friends only, mainly cos I don't want stuff I say twisted and distorted, but then I don't want to look like I am letting it get to me. So I'm staying open! Mind you, I will be making more posts friends only, and using more filters!
I don't like not being able to trust ppl, and part of me does feel violated by this intrusion, but as I say, I should have expected it! Those who know me, and those I love to bits have shown their worth many times over. I am honoured to call all of you friends, and hope that at least some of you feel that I am a good friend back. I am always there when you need me, and don't tend to let others view influence mine!
Sorry that took so long, but I do feel a bit calmer now.
Thank you all for listening!
